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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I'm 20! and this is the 100th post!!!

It's been like what, 4 years since i've started blogging? Hmmm, 25 posts per year, an avg of 2 post per month, not bad la. But still, I'll need to blog more, many people have already pass the 200 mark in less than 2 years. Can't blame me, i have no life. But actually, I'm just another lazy person. Doubt people still come here. I mean, some even thought this blog is already dead. Haha.

I'm 20 now.... GOSH! I feel soooo old liao!!! It feels like a truck just slam right into my face. I mean i'm 20 and i feel like i did nothing for the past 20 years. Yeah, i know i've turn 20 last 3 weeks liao. -.-"

10 Stuff I had not done in the past 20 years but should had:
1. I never worked even part time(but if you considered working for 1 day as working...)
2. I haven't learn how to drive (most of my friends does now! even LYY)
3. I never had a girlfriend before, or a boyfriend for that matter in case some day i discover i'm gay, haha
4. Never went into a club before
5. Had not get laid, HAHAHAHAHA
6. I'm still not 100% sure what I want in life, is this the course i really want?
7. I have not travelled out of South East Asia.
8. I never got dead drunk
9. Went on a real adventure such as climbing Mt Kinabalu, camping in a REAl jungle...etc
10. I still don't have a credit card but ho, i'm still asking money from parents le.... so erm.. optional la. But would be nice to have one ma... ;(

10 things I'm done which a 20 year old should:
1. I've smoked before (once before 10 anyway then never again)
2. I stay up for 24 hours straight.
3. I stay out of the house until after 3 in the morning at least
4. I went travelling with friends only. (Last year KL and this year, we're going sg!)
5. I watch movies meant for the adults (R rated)
6. I found my best friends.
7. I lived out of the house... being independent, doing housechores, etc,etc
8. I took care of doing official papers without any help. (I applied and settle everything in uni myself)
9. I stood up for myself.
10. I did things a responsible adult would do like calling my parents to tell them i'm ok after a flight, making calls/sms to people in case of change of plans, etc,etc. There are some stuff i won't do when i was younger. I try not to make my parents worry.

Let's see, how life in uni. Not bad lo. My results are quite good la. If i try a bit more harder for my finals, i think i have a chance in getting into the dean's list. Why would i suddenly become so kiasu and want to get into the so called 'cream of the crop' students? I just want to enter just once la, at least to make my resume in my future job application to look more prettier. Can add 'outstanding dean's list student le'! So why not? Plus, they say first year,first sem is the easiest semester to get into the list, of course i must try this sem.

I still sleep in class though. Haha, and very exaggerating one. I lay down on 3 seats and slept for the whole 2 hours. Hahaha. SART dao... And i really need to try presenting more and more lo. I really suck at presentations. Haiz...

Let's get on to some mushy stuff now. Being 20, I feel that I really am very lucky to be able to find friends who trusts me, loves me and are always there for me. You guys are really one of a kind(you know who you are!) and it seems very hard for me to find others like all of you wherever i may be. I mean, for lot of people in uni, I act alot. I don't show my true colours and am polite, patient, humble and generous and stuff.

I'm no angel that i can tell everyone but i'm only human. I don't do serious crimes or mistakes. I don't frame people for what they didn't do and I certainly did not betray the ones who are my true friends. I can be very tolerant to my very good to best friend. Look at that sampat la, even if he's so paranoid, sampat and critical, i'll stay by his side all the same la,haha. But seriously, trust is important to me in a relationship whether it's between families, friends and lovers. I just realized. No trust, no confidence then no will to continue the relationship.

Oh my god, since when did i become emotional de? Bah, stop here liao. update next time bah!

Labels: Feelings, Me, Perspective, Uni

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009