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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Really Randoms

If my blog is a person and posts are what keeps him alive, my blog must be a bed-ridden sick old man. Might as well end life, cut loose and get on with life. Haha. Tried changing the skin but can't seem to do it right. Skins from blogskins doesn't seems to work. LOTS of editing needed. Being a Tech-no doesn't make it more easier. Darn it. :/ No, i'm not closing down my blog. Just lazy to update. I do read others blogs and i admire their passion to keep it updated like kennysia, xiaxue and my friends like liping and chung sun. no wonder my english seems to be getting quite poor compared to when i was in form 5.

I'm feeling pressured. Failed maths and chem on the last sem's finals. And by a really big margin too. I'm thinking of going tuition for maths. For chemistry and bio, i'll be working my arse on it. On a side note, i've still managed to pass that compulsory sub but not safe yet. Just pass is not going to cut it. Might go tuition for that as well. How come my friend like Jeff have that kind of serious attitude when it comes to studying and i don't? I thought you'll become more similar with the people you hang out with over time? Man.....

I just need to be in the right mood i think. Hmmm, it's really hard for me to have that mood lo. It only happens right before exams and tests. Even for O level, i studied last minute. Was lucky to pass all. Lots of specs dropped for that ;-) I've been a happy go lucky guy for most part of my life. But this time, it's different. I feel the vibe. That this is definitely one of those obstacles that determines my life. One of those time point which changes my entire life and how i'm going to live.

I failed even in average for the last sem. And when i told this to mom, She said " You have to start working hard lo, If you fail, then what is the purpose for you to sacrifice a comfortable life to return to malaysia to study?" Somewhat like that. And it struck me hard. She clearly sounded disappointed. I've always tried not to let her down and it's been going well with few occasional disappointments but not in my studies. She never have to worry about that starting form 1. I was always in her expectation(I've always have higher la) to at least pass but now? I've assure her last time that i'll pass and i did. This time, i assured her that i won't fail too much in maths and chem but i did. At least 30% margin for both.

Sorry, if i bored you with this. It seems that all i can blog about are studies. I don't have an interesting life. It's just been like going with the flow of fate. Smooth, calm and nothing interesting ever seems to happen. Well, it's not like my life is dull, it's colourful. But once in a while i would live to have something extreme. Something totally out of ordinary of my life. But phew, if i'm always that way, i would have died of depression. ;)

Something out of ordinary
I had a grey hair plucked out of my head by a friend! GREY HAIR! Me! My face doesn't suit to have grey hair! It's like a baby with armpit hair! It's just plain unacceptable! I must be worrying too much and sleeping irregularly. Have to live like a normal teenage such as able to not sleep in class even if the teacher's one of the most boring teacher i've ever met. Yes, i still continue that habit ;( It acts as a defense mechanism for boringness. Haha! Might as well make that my resolution for next year. Hmm, don't think i've made any resolutions before. It would be a new start.

I found out that i'm a flirt or at least feels like one based on the reactions of people around me. Whenever I'm close to any members of the opposite sex, I would be deemed falling for them. Either we're together or i'm hitting on them. Ok, luckily people who truly knows my 'lovey' attitudes (which is few) towards female counterparts is just a sign of a deep rooted pure friendship with them. Maybe even sisters liao. Don't mind the rumours though, it must mean the people are jealous and are denying the possibly of a true pure friendship between man and woman. I feel sorry for them to live in such a small tiny world ;)

To end this post. I hereby solute two of my friends for understanding themselves and I'm really happy for them. Now the fun begins *evil grin* Hahahahahahhaha!! You know who you are Mr ------- and Miss -----. Ironic event. lol!

Labels: Life, Perspective, Philosophy, Skool

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Saturday, July 12, 2008