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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

I may not know it but i understand

Wah, my first post after a long time of inactivity on the blog scene. My excuses this time? Erm... let's see, nothing interesting happened. Well, not that my life had been a roller coaster ride. But i seem to have an inspiration to blog right now. Strange, i thought i lost that when i went to kuching. I'm searching for a new skin for my blog now... So leave a comment in case i do change it. Maybe i should make one myself! ...................errr ok... comp idiot here, i'll stop embarrassing myself now -.-"

Well, food for thought first. Have you ever wondered what will we be like in the future? Your high school friends, your bff.... your ex maybe? Ok, i have no ex so cut me some slack. Imagine, one day when you were picking your daughter/son from school in maybe America?(who knows that you might migrate there). Then a horny,bitchy bitch honked at you because she couldn't get pass your car although you think there were enough space to pass. So, you raise your middle finger to her and say 'fuck you!'. LOL!!! She came out of her car and asks you to pull down your window where you both realized almost immediately that you were high school friends back in the days.

Lol. Now that's would be an awkward scenario,wouldn't it? Let's add some more spice into the scenario. You see that she's pregnant and suddenly a kid runs towards her yelling mommy! Wow, some shock. How about we replace that friend with your ex who you dumped? And what's worse, your wife. Awkward~~~

But nah, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I mean if it's my friend(Eteng, Chiayee,Mayan....etc) then i have perfectly no reason to be awkward let alone embarrassed by my finger pointing act. LOLx! We would laugh about it, i'm sure :p Why? Because i have never been too polite to them(but not too rude either,mind you) to begin with. They know my style and since we're true friends, they would have expect and accepted the way i acted. What i want to prove here is that friends accept the way you are and won't change you if your personality is not that bad. I mean if you have the tendency of doing over unacceptable things, true friends will change you and guide you in telling you what's wrong with you. No, they wouldn't laugh at you or at least deep down inside them. And if you can't accept the criticism or the embarrassment that they have thrown at you, then i'll say you're such a nice 'true' friend you are yourself.

I mean if you can't forgive them for something they did wrong to you, then how can they forgive you if you did wrong to them. True friends are about forgiveness. If you are causing great distress for your true friends(or so you thought they're true) then what kind of friends you are. Of course this only apply to friends who had been with you through thick and thin.

I want to say STOP dreaming for those who has ever been complaining and whining about friendship problems, blah,blah,blah~~~ Friends are not perfect, even true friends and bff. Your friends are won't be there every time you get into deep shit. They would like to but they can't. It's the heart that's count. I mean even if your bff can't be with you when you're in deep shit, they'll still be worry about you, and wonder how things turned out. You might not know it but if your friendship holds true, then it's certainly is that way.(if they knew about it)

Face it, your true friends are not made to be a perfect companion for you. They still have flaws you have to learn to accept. Your life is definitely not like those novels or movies! Yeah right, as if 'may death do us apart' kind of friends is really that easy to find in real life. Lower your expectations! On them and yourself. You all expect too much! I did once but now that i've accepted the fact, it's great! i have great and true friends and i'm positive about it! Although not many but it's enough to last me a hell of a lifetime.

I'm not some over egotistic self proclaimed social butterfly who has always think that they have sooo many friends and many more of that would want to be their friend. To tell the truth, i have not many friends. Heck quality beats quantity as i always have believe. Are you sure that you so called friends wouldn't back stab you when you turn around? How about when you're in deep shit? will they help you? They might be drop another kick at you while you're at it.

Ok, this next statement might seem harsh although i do drag social situations. Some people around me, i never consider them as friends. Seriously. You can feel it when I'm with them and it's a bit obvious. I considered them as just acquaintances, people i know. The people i'll greet when i meet them(or not) but not saying anything more than that. Maybe a few more topics on common stuff but that's all. It's not like i'm going to pass on some hot juicy gossip about who just came out in the open to someone i don't familiar with,someone i don't quite trust(you have to earn trust). I may look like a 'big mouth gossiper' but that's only around some people. Hey, what's life without some juicy gossip to spice up your life?

Jeff, if you're reading this, then let me tell you. You are VERY shitty at times!!! LOL!!! You're sometimes too judgmental but, never mind. I have accepted it. The point i'm trying to prove here is that i don't talk behind my true friends' back. I tell them in the face! LOL! And yet, does that break the friendship? No! If it does then it's not true to begin with.

My last words, don't expect too much, this hurt both sides of a budding friendship. Well, hope this post will entertain you guys. Well, at least some of you XD

PS. True friendship doesn't need advertising! You don't need it out loud even for that friend. No reminder and no regrets! It's a you know i know thingy...;p

Labels: Acquaintance, Friends, Me, Philosophy

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007