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Thursday, August 30, 2007

I'm becoming worse.

Sigh...... i feel like an old man these days and think maybe i should retire or something.... I'm just too tired to do anything except watching movies and not moving entirely until the movie ends. The point here is, I'm getting lazier and lazier..... O.O" how can a person like me get lazier and lazier when i am already a lazy person? Well, it's worse now.... even i get the feeling that I'm being too*10000 lazy.

Failed every single tests here.....Not that I'm the only one failing but everyone, failed as well in maths paper 2 and chemistry. Only some people passed maths paper 1.... We haven't gotten our bio back but the teacher had already told us that it was disastrous. I know i failed that one too and so is P.A(Pengajian Am, the compulsory Malay subject that we needed to take...) Heard that the highest is only 12.5 out of 25..... So pass is the highest. I know i failed because:
1. I didn't finish my conclusion
2. I only wrote about 200plus words in which the requirement is between 300 to 350....

I'm just getting slower and slower.....like getting old.... Though i don't expect my self to pass but i also didn't expect myself to fail so miserably... So terrible, it's even worse than when i was in form 5. Depressed? Definitely. Suicidal thought? Unless it's the end of earth.

Planned to go out to Santubong, a place with thick forest as well as a nice beach to catch insects for our group project with my group. We're doing preservations of the insects as well as plants. Due date is three weeks later but it's not enough(for the plants). We need to catch insects! Things that i don't usually touch or even dare to share the same space with. Sigh...... It was suppose to be tomorrow but it was postponed to Saturday....

Now the end of all these shits.

I GOT A NEW LAPTOP LAST SUNDAY!!!! Congrats me and it's great! Web cam is infused into the laptop already!!! All for RM1999! With space of 120GB HDD, DVD player and a digital surround system which comes with it(the catalogue say one la). It's definitely worth it. Did i mention it's ACER? Well, it's my prize possession now. Treasured it really, really much.

That's it. That's the only thing i feel happy about these days....

I'm thinking of taking IELTS. aka The International English Language Test System. I mean with my ability, I'm confident that i won't fail it.....yet, not getting a good results either... Heard that it's really hard but they holding it once a month if i'm not wrong. The catch is.... it cost a bloody 500+ ringgit to take a test like that. don't have that much money... don't wanna waste money unless I'm absolutely confident about taking that test.(which i don't think I'll ever will.....) Oh well, at least it's an internationally recognized test.

I want to learn to drive but i don't think i can with my current schedule..... Sigh.... Life is hard....

Labels: Depress, Life, Me, Skool

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

No excuses, just tests

I don't know why but i lost the inspiration to blog nowadays. It's been like around a month since i blogged....Don't know why..... i've even stopped reading blog until just recently. Maybe because i'm having quite a lot of stress and pressure right now all coming in one go. Peers pressure, studies pressure, activity pressure, a bit of family pressure and so on. But what can i do? As someone with high EQ (err-hem), i've identified all these pressure and managed to cope with it. With help from O2jam and my aunt, of course. Of course many events has happened so it's gonna be a long,long post to make up for the long absence.

On a saturday, two weeks ago on 28th of July. Went to an American fast food chain food store. Guess what? It's an all-you-can-eat buffet!!! The name of the store: Hartz chicken!! For only Rm15 (excluding service tax), you can eat all sort of junk food, fast food and fatty food ranging from soft drinks, ice cream, fried/roast chicken meat(plus all the organs inside) to spagetti, curry and marsh potatoes with only 15 ringgit!!! A worthwhile bargain!!! Too bad, i ate until i puke a bit and continue to eat again but at last, i puke again when i got back home. Was too bloated. And it's effect lasted for five days. I call it ' The Hartz effect!'

Some weeks ago(forgot the actual date) .... I was having Muet class(Malaysian University Entrance Exam).... OMG!!! We watch a clip about a woman who's giving birth!!! All the details were inside!!! The private part,the cutting, the blood and the time when the baby came out!!! Yes, all frontal view. Trust me, it ain't pretty. BE GRATEFUL TO YOUR MOTHER!!! Kektio, i wasn't able to eat breakfast during recess after that clip. I know it was gonna be ugly but i didn't expect it to be THAT ugly. Hmmm, maybe the govt could try to promote safe sex but selling that as porn. You know, disgust that documentary as a porn saying hot sex and stuff. Then when those perverts and rapists see it, maybe they'll change their minds.

Chemistry short quiz on a certain monday 6th of August( happens once every chapter finishes)- The effect? The chemistry shocked effect. Don't know whether i might fail or not but hopefully not. Which reminds me that i got around 41 and 2 over 3 for my first chem short quiz. Grade= Pass by a little. Not fair but at least i know i did the right thing by NOT peeking unlike..... but luckily there's only less than my fingers number who are doing that.

A few days ago on a certain wednesday, 8th of August. I had my Bio test! The results, FAIL!!! Yes, the big capital F! I haven't receive my paper back yet but i know my result from my bio/form teacher. Reason is quite simple, i missed chapter one lesson and she focused around 40 marks out of 50 for chapter one. An additional catch is that the chapter one topic was biochemistry. Heck, how am i gonna understand those molecular structures of glucose, cellulose.....etc on my own? I suck in chemistry in case anyone haven't notice especially in calculations and formulae. Damn! Luckily i don't think there wouldn't be much formulae in bio anymore over the next 21 chapters!!!

I almost flipped in class yesterday on 10th August. That guy sitting beside me is sooo damn annoying!!! He keeps making excuses for his annoyance by calling them as jokes. Cheh! What's the point of 'joking' if he's the only one who finds it funny? Plus, i'm not the first and only one who got pissed off at him. I thought maybe i was being a bit oversensitive at first but then again if i'm not the only one who got pissed off, then it's not my fault, ain't it? That's it, i'll be changing my seat even if it means sitting at the first row. It might be torturing in maths class but i'll get use to it soon enough.

Confrontation
In my current school, they also go by the system whereby the prefects takes disciplinery actions against the students. However, they are all understanding and helpful most of the time. They are also reasonable. No, they wouldn't use their special identity like some kind of power hungry freaks. They are only there to advise the students and if they fail, then they have to write down the offender name and pass it up to the disciplinery officer.

Anyway, that's not the main point. I kinda got into a little confrontation with their assistant head girl( sorta like the assistant head of prefects for girls) regarding..... name tags. Yeah, we are all supposed to have a name tag sown to our shirt. But!!! since a lot of the form six students are new students, they don't have their name tags even if we had paid for it a month ago( for me, three weeks). And the prefect wants us to buy a temporary name tag(TNT) made of manila card for 50 cents!!! Hey! We're new students and it should be acceptable that we have no name tags at the moment! It's not about the money, it's about our principle! Plus, the people who are supposed to buy those TNT are supposed to be those who did not bring their name tags to school. So, how the heck are we, the new students suppose to bring it if we don't have it? They should give it to us for free, ya know.

Acting on my instinct, i reasoned with the assistance head girl that i refuse to buy that ugly piece of yellow paper aka TNT. I demanded that she provide a perfectly reasonable reason that we must buy that TNT, giving my reasons and all why i refuse to buy it. Guess what, they just don't have any good enough reasons. Until today, they still haven't give me the reason. Oh, did i mention that their head boy aka big chief of the prefects is in my class? Not even him can give me a good reason.

The other day as i walked through the security check made up by the prefects to check for tidy uniform,TNT...etc after the incident, one of the normal prefect who obviously doesn't know who she's dealing with asked me for my name tag. Turning my head back slowly to look at her, i was about to 'do my stuff' when the assistance head girl(yeah, her again) said never mind about moi, which literally means that i'm free to go without being bother for not having a name tag. That was a sign of my victory.

Went to the kuching fest a few hours ago, and it was great! Lots of food!!! Food heaven!!! It's way better than brunei's pasar malam, that's for sure. And the chinese singers there was magnific! Very good voices. The catch is that there's too many people (and traffic jam) with too little tables there. Lots of different stalls there. I ate a lot of food from different cultures though they're not really imported from the native country or something. They don't call it kuching fest for nothing. I was able to eat korean, chinese, taiwanese, thai, italian, indian and local food. Missed japanese, indonesian and malay food though.... didn't feel like eating sushi unless there is tempura. Most importantly, i ate something called.... FRIED ICE CREAM!!! Yes, it's ice cream which has been fried in bread powder. It'll still be ice cream after it got fried. Locked inside bread, you'll just don't which flavor you're getting until you take a bite.

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person.
However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways.
You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order.
You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

It's hard for me to make decisions. Hope this long post is enough to make up for the past month. Song added: Planetarium and Flavor of Life.

Labels: Emotions, Events, Food, Skool, Songs

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