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Thursday, April 12, 2007

Things tiring me recently

Have not had enough sleep this week.....4 big acnes had once again occupy my recently better face. Must blame it on my laziness for that,always doing the homeworks late at night. Padan Muka,awu? <-----------Informal Malay i just learned. In case anyone still doesn't know,i'll be moving to a new house this sunday so i've been busy.....(actually, only packed 1 box) packing. It'll be in Tungku Link(still in MD area) and so, i will be very sleepy on Monday.Like Hell~~~~ Today st Socio class, i almost fell asleep.....again. I wonder if the teacher saw me or not. Anyway, at the end of class,she said we wouldn't have afternoon class with her on Saturday. 'Yes!' is in my first thought since we have an essay to pass up that day. Then she continued 'But you still have to pass up your essay before lunch'. What? That sucks~~~~ My mood was on high then it went down immediately......flat.

History can be fun too, you know....literally. Please bear in mind that the guys in my History class tend not to think straight. For example;the teacher once called Napoleon an 'alien'. And the fat guy next to me was like 'really? how do they know?'.....Ahem,actually,teacher was refering that Napoleon is a foreigner of France. (-_-")

Ok,note that the guys doesn't think straight. And here we have a history that makes the whole class laugh including me. Remember the history of Awang Alak Betatar aka AAB? He married the princess of Johore,right? Well, there's a few version depending on which perpective you look at.
First politically speaking :

He married the princess of Johore in order to get in good ties with Johore. That's the common one.

A story:

AAB once owned a bird. (right here,some people were laughing already)
One day,he lost his bird........
The he asked Awang Semaun: Where's my bird???!!!
Awang Semaun said: If you sail to Johore,there you will find your bird.

In Johore........
AAB went to the palace of Johore. There, the bird met the Princess........

I was laughing hard~~~hehe. Maybe it doesn't seem funny here but when the teacher talked about it,we were laughing. So, who says History is boring???!!! I for one always think History is interesting. Plus, the malays studying History might end up being Ministers or Ambassador,you know. It's a requirement for them to know History,ahahaha. I think maybe i'll go 'ba jie' them. Then again,since i'm not Bruneian,maybe not.

I've added a new song named: The rest of my life by Less than Jake in my Disaster box.....just telling. Like the quote in their MV.

"The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect,he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them,he becomes an adult... "-------- Alden Nowlan

and also

"The day the child forgives himself,he becomes wise"-------Alden Nowlan

Have i ever put that in my blog before? I forgot.....need sleep......

You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Life's like LOL??!!!

Today i found a shocking fact that there's a friendly malay girl from an all girl's school had been in all of my class (History,Sociology,Eng Lit and EAS) for the past 2 months. Well, almost. She dropped her EAS and changed to GP so, almost every class. But she's also have the same PS block with me and has the same Civic class. Kektio, such a coincidence and i just realize today...... *lots of lines coming down in dark blue background*

Haiz, i think i'm stuck in MD liao lo~~~~Drat! Even if i wanted to go, i don't have a chance. Yeah right, the'r words was like treating me like a mature adult and yet in the end, to them, i'm just their little boy forever. Jeez wheez, they want me to grow up and mature but how could i if they're actually not letting me. Parents.......sigh. I think i'm trap in the bonds that will destroy my future life.

So,how do you guys think of the new layout? Found it on blogskins and couldn't resist to use it. Of course i kept a copy of Piang's work and i think i'll switch between them,hohoho. Plus, what do you guys think about the song 'Set the fire to the third bar' by Snow Patrol? Is it my taste getting worse or just that my sis doesn't really have any good sense in music anyhow. I prefer to say that she has worse taste than me. Kids can't really 'feel' the songs. That's a phrase i've gone through.

I'll be busy next week....real busy. All my sub are gonna be doing lots of stuff like we'll be having a quiz with assessment marks in EAS, Essay from Socio due on next Thursday,Play in English Lit which we have to memorise the lines( all the thee and thou,jeez) and for history, a possible essay assignment. *Faints* Plus, i'll be presenting the Civic stuff on Monday which i did not entirely lay a finger on it or even seen it yet. The unforturnate partner of mine is doing all the work, so to not entirely embarass myself,i'm doing research now on prayer. I think maybe i'll also get some info on other religion's prayer, to prepare myself and enrich the presentation. God, i have to speak Malay!(which i got E last yr for the oral......)

Thinking of dropping Kendo,too bothersome to go from place to place.Especially when my transports are limited. Unless i drive which wouldn't happen for at least a year. Sigh~~~ Life's a joke if ya ask me.

I find that some people are so funny because unlike me, they crave for popularity which i think is an empty thing to have. Why have plastic when you can actually have warmth? In fact, i happen to laugh at the one who wants popularity more than everything else. I mean, anyone can achieve popularity, just that it's something i think will pass eventually. I've been popular once,(note:once) but i just threw it away. It kinda limits stuff you can do. And why would you need it when you don't have the real 'soul'? I rather have the real 'soul' devoted then having a temporary shelter full of lies~~~~

You Are As Cool As They Come

Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic.
You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up.
You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture.

And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show.
You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that.
People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Seriously, i'm really full of drama. So, REJECT!

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Is it a crime to have second thoughts?

Oh my god, i guess i'm quite 'wu ke jiu yao' liao. Now, i'm having second thoughts about going Kuching...............again. KEK DAO~~~~i CAN"T make up my mind.....ok, i know i said that when i get accepted,i'll definitely go but now because i'm starting to like MD,arrrgh~~~~ actually, it seems that there's something violent running about in Sarawak. Call me weak, i'm used to Brunei being boring but still, it's sooooooo peaceful le~~~~

Aiyo, i know i can go to Kuching without dying or getting too home-sick but the catch is, is it a better choice for me? That is the question. Though i'm quite upset that i didn't get to do Business. Toink! We must all realize that what i'm taking now in MD is good for a few selected and limited job. Lawyer,journalist,writer,mass media stuff,sociologists,ummmmmm historian? Duh, when i look at these job options, questions cross my mind. These jobs are giving me questions like 'Hey, how much do i earn from these jobs?' Basically, i can only see that my future is dim at the moment. Ever heard that journalists and writers are very,very poor unless you're the next J.K Rowling but she was also tight before Harry Potter was published.

Yeah,right. A lawyer/attorney???!!! Please la, i think i heard that the people study law from England la~~~~ Plus, i wouldn't be able to move from country to country or change my profession to much extend if i become one. Plus, i have an unclear speech problems and i will be dreaming about my next life if i want to study law in England la. And my parents might not be able to send me to study law even in Malaysia. I'll most likely end up in UBD if i stay here and what can i study in UBD???!!! History kah and become a poor scholar for the rest of my life? Sociology? Become what? Sociology teacher meh? I thought about that the most lowly job i'll go for is teacher. Not really lowly la,but to me, i hate kids so there,i might go berserk and kill them......hahaha~~~~

The reason i wanted to go to Kuching was because I'll have a second chance of choosing the subjects over again and this time,business and accounting are in my consideration. At least i think i'll survive out in the society. I can become an accountant and live the boring paperwork life or a business man who knows his accounts so he wouldn't be cheated. Sadly the choice i made in selecting the subject i'm studying now are all based on my dream. But face it, this is the real world. There's only working class waiting for me if i follow my dream. I know it sounds like i'm getting mild and dreamless, which some said without dreams then you'll be worthless.
But, since studying sociology, i must think that maybe because people follow their dreams that they end up as working class and middle class. Never the upper class people. Ok, some people do succeed but what are the chances? i think it's even less than 0.1 out of 10. Where do you get all the rich?

Ok, i'm in denial. I'm just feeling insecure,that's all. I thought that i should learn more skills in order to survive the harsh world. Thinking of learning skills such cooking,hairstyling.....etc. Those professions that involves skills. At least i'm be able to open my own cafe and such lo. Haiz, being 'duo xin' will kill one if ya know what i mean. So, this huge thing has been giving me headache for quite some time. Even my dad's think that staying in Brunei might be good for me. Duh~~~~~It's because i want to start to rely on myself rather than my parents, that's why i have the idea to go anyway. Plus, if i start Form 6 there in Malaysia, i might even get a loan from the govt to study uni la. The very benefit i'm hoping for in the future, so i can lighten my parents' burden. It might not sound like me to sound like that,i guess.

Anyhow, if i really need to decide liao before the payment to enter AS Level closes this Thursday. Well, now i have a funny thought. There's always room for insurance agents and salesperson..........AHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

What's Your Thinking Style?

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Yours Truly KSS

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