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Friday, February 09, 2007

Cats,MeeeeoooooW.

Ah yes, after 25 hours, i'll be roughly boarding my flight to Kuching, the city of cats. Don't bother to read my blog after this post, i'll be freezing for like 2 and a half weeks. Ah yes, i'm picturing myself looking at the large 100+ feet trees all day long. Wonder if rambutan or durian is still in season or not. Yes! I can taste it in my mouth now,savouring those big,juicy rambutans that i pick myself right from the trees. Production from only those 2 trees is more than enough to satisfy all 40+ members of the family and there'll be too much that we can sell it too.

Well, all my family there treats me very nicely and sometimes,i think that they treat me TOO NICELY. They don't bother about my grades at school or how lazy i am. They're just plain nice. But then, there's has to have one of the people with prob with me. Namely Dad. Yeah right. When there's good,there's bound to be bad. I just dunno what's the prob with him and me, we're never been very close. Heck, the way he treats my baby brother and me, you'll see. Not that i'm being green or anything, but it's just seem unfair. If i were treated like my bro when i was his age, i wouldn't have any prob, but those who worked for my dad remembers that he(dad)'s the one who always makes me cry since i was little. The treatment just differs too much.

Is it maybe i'm not as cute as him(bro) since i was born? Well, bear with it. Some people doesn't have father because they were unforturnate enough. Some were forturnate enough to have a father who cares and support them in one way or another. Me? I mostly feels that i have a father but doesn't really own it. Sometimes it feels like i'm not his biological son. Tried to get on his side but can't and so, i finally gave up. Maybe it's because i believe in fairness more than i believe in love. Truth is, i value fairness very much. If something's not fair,i tend to fight for it.

Of course, occasionally we can still be good together but it wouldn't last very long. I can't really stand someone who values his car more than his wife. A car 's lifeless, but human isn't. I think i'll be better and more successful if i was a dad. Just that i don't like to be tie up by commitments. It's just too troublesome. Not that i am an irresponsible person or anything, just that i feel that it's just unnecessary to commit. If a commitment can be broken easily , what's the use of committing? Unless,you get legal papers done,duh.

Ya, what the heck,i'll be having too much fun with my cousins and time will fly quickly. Wouldn't be bother by anything during CNY so, i'll be happy like nuts. Oh no, speaking of commitment, it seems that in higher education, assessments,homeworks and projects stands for 50% for the academic results with tests and exams for the other half. Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *Me and my whole surrounding becomes 'The Scream'*

I'm known for my lazyness. I've never did any work for some of the classes(Note:never) and i've never complete all the works given to me since like 6th grade. Oh no, i'm doom. I'll be having four classes that will require me to write essays. Ah, Tian ah. T_T " Hope that i won't let this horrible thought getting its way into my festive mood during CNY.

Is it a crime to be lazy? Haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You Are 36% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue.
While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow.
And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check.
You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

How Angry Are You?

SS Phoenix @ 4:27 PM

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Packed and ready.

As you all must know CNY is around the corner. Exactly 11 days from now. Well, i'll be going back to Kuching at 10th(3 days from now) so, i wouldn't be updating my blog for about 2 and a half week after that date. Might seem early to go back so soon but on monday,i received news that my grandpa has a bad fall and he needed 20+ stiches. And he's 80+. OMG, don't worry, grandpa, your beloved,smart and wonderful grandson will return home shortly!

Don't bother to look for me or anything during CNY except after 28-ish. I'll be living in the mountains, far away from the noise pollutions,air pollution and water pollution. Heck, there're wouldn't be much to do there except breathing the fresh air, eat fresh poulty,fresh fish and fresh fruits. And there's no sign or simpang to that house,only a stone road as marking. Isolated and there wouldn't be a strong signal too. Luckily there's still a tv with astro there. Funny thing about going back to my homeland is that i don't feel like going there but when it's time to come back to Brunei, i want to stay there. Sheesh, what a hard to please person i am.

Well, been lazy for the last couple of day and i don't feel like starting school. Maybe it's the festive mood i'm getting. There's this tradition(not really) that started like two or three years ago, the young ones of our family in Kuching will choose a day before the New Year's Eve and we would all go out to Bandar Kuching to shop,watch a movie and play there together. Note: All of us which is like 10 to 15 people. So, imagine that such a large group of young people walking together, it feels a bit like being in a gang. Well, luckily we don't look hostile. Hope we still keep this tradition this year. A highlight in CNY i enjoy.

Well, i might update my blog again.......or not. But anyhow, Happy Advance Chinese New Year,everyone. So, where's my ang pao? I want my ang pao before school starts,if not, i'll charge double, wahahahahaha!

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Any Old Soul and Peacemaker soul?

SS Phoenix @ 6:03 PM

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Thursday, February 01, 2007

Seems close yet far.

These few days, i have not been getting enough sleep. I slept 6 hours on monday night,6.5hours on tuesday night and 8 hours on wednesday night. It might not seem serious but if you're a sleepy head like me who needs to sleep for at least 10hours, you'll know that feeling. I've been deprived of my sleep(except on monday),having to wake up at nine these two morning just to apply for MD. Quite frustrated for the first day but seeing my mom so determined, how couldi let her down,haiz~~~

It seems that though that some of my friends who apply for the same school(MD) and that we can still meet at school(hopefully), I think it'll be quite rare for me to meet any of them. Most of them would just apply for sciences and maths and i do mean most. Me? Heck, i'm just not interested in moles and equations. I'm actually the only one who apply for one of the 'cold' subject. History,to be precise.

I think there's quite a few number of ppl who apply for Sociology. And I'm taking English Language AND............OMG.........i seem to forgot. Was it ELL or ASL? Ummm, i think it was ASL,English Literature. But, i'm not quite certain. Haiz, now that i'm taking all the subjects that involve a lot in reading. I'm quite satisfied with the subjects i've chosen but still, I might be in a little problem since all of them will involve in writing essays. I think i really have to study hard or else, it would be chaotic and i wouldn't be as lucky as i was in 'O' Level.

Yes,people, I got a C5 in Chem and C6 in Add Maths. So, who wants to see a show when i raise my head until only my nose show to that !@^&* Conception. Hehe, i've sure show her. A C5 in Chem may not seem like a good result for all. But when you always gets an 'E' in your former school but end up with with a C,you'll be overjoy too like me. That no good *****, she's always look down on me and never for once think that i can score a credit. Oh well, luckily i never listened in her damn boring class before so, she's not my teacher. She doesn't deserve to be a teacher though. I like Anne way better. She changed to teach us. She has what we call, a teacher's heart. Conception? She just have the knowledge but not the heart which makes her a failure. It's also a teacher's duty nowadays to capture a student's attention. I guess she's just too old fashioned to realize that.

And i think i didn't disappoint Mr.Chew, the add math teacher. I may always get a 'U' in his class, but at last i manage to do much better than just getting a pass. To me, Mr.Chew is a swell teacher(after he bumped his head), at least he's not worse that that *****. Haiz, i guess no one will know the feeling of a lazy person like me. Not only did i not do any of Mr.Chew's homework for the whole year, but i also didn't practice much for the exam. Except until the night before the exams which i 'open night bus' or midnight oil. Smart ppl, you just wouldn't understand that feeling you get when you totally can't get any ideas on how to do it.

But i think i'm quite guilty for letting Madam Tan,our Malay Teacher down. She really is a good teacher but i just did well below the forecast results she gave me. Can't really show my face. Sorry. And have i ever mention before that Mr.Chew gave me an assessment mark of 10 out of 10 even when i never did his homework and listen to his class. Well, it's not that i didn't want to listen, i just fell asleep. Can't blame me, a lazy person like me has to get his beauty sleep.

Very tired from going to The Mall but Death Note 2:The Last Name was definitely worth it.

Your Life Path Number is 5

Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.

You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.
You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.
You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.

In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.

You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.
Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.
You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

I must admit sometimes i really am impulsive and spontaneous BUT overindulgent with SEX N DRUGS????!!!! That's ridiculous! Food, on the other hand........... And i have many talents????!!!! What? Talent of sleeping? Talent of buck teeth? Talent of lazying? I can't seem to find my talent at all.

SS Phoenix @ 8:33 PM

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Yours Truly KSS

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