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Saturday, December 30, 2006

Soi to the ground.

Lately i've been jinxed or even cursed if ya ask me. So, where's the silver lining in all these bad luck? Every gray cloud should have a silver lining. What? After all these bad luck comes the good? Now that's a possibility. Here's some things that happened these few days. You can find some bad luck properties in all.

26th Dec== Went out to see Curse of the golden flower. Great movie if ya ask me. Though there were some scene that Jay Chow's expression was quite funny. Like when he found out that the emperor(his dad in the movie) was drugging his mom(the empress), his way of crying is indeed funny. Guess he don't have many expression to show, does he? And there was that scene when he was fighting against a zillion soldier, there's one expression when he pucker up his lips. Weird actually. Still, with Chow Yun Fatt and Gong Li, two gigantic superstars, the movie is really,really good. A must of the year movie. But when your arms and legs hurt like mine after a sunday badminton and swim, you wouldn't be happy walking with sores for an hour or two. Well, at least for me that is.

28th Dec== Again went out to see Confession of pain. This time, it's not the sores, it's the weather. Just before the movie started,i was running a bit late. But if it wasn't raining and slippery, i wouldn't have any problem walking to the mall from my dad's shop(Got a bit wet). The movie just started a moment before we went into the cinema. And that airplane flying !@#$%^&* , he said he would definitely go and oh yeah he did, after we finished the movie and i have to go back home that is! Ok,the movie storyline was boring,it was like a normal average killer and police flick. However, The two leads really have perfect acting skills which makes the movie not totally a waste of money or time. The theme is GREAT! 'Secret by Ayumi Hamasaki.' But it's not out yet,so i'll just wait for it. ^^

29th Dec== Pei Yi call me at about 6 30 to ask me to go to the Red Chilli at Kiulap. Ok, fine, i've got permission from my mom to go but after dad came back, SHE CHANGE HER MIND!!!!??? Saying that dad wouldn't drive me there cause it's raining. How piss off i was!. Grarrrrrr!!!!!!!! Now, i'll be known as the airplane prince. (King's not me, you see)But it doesn't end there, When i was typing my post that night, CANNOT FIND PAGE is the f***ing sentence i have to find after trying to save it as a draft. Stupid !

Well, that's basically what happened. And this is indeed the second time i'm writing this post. Have anyone curse me?

You Are 80% Grown Up, 20% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Hmmmm, true,true and true. Bleh!!!!

SS Phoenix @ 2:33 PM

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Monday, December 25, 2006

Absolute disappearance

First of all,
Seasons to be to de jolly,falalalala,lalalala....................end

Merry Christmas to all and to all the merry.
Lame...............
What the heck,haven been really keen on writing my blog right now. Anyway,is there something i should know about? There's rumours of me going out of the country flinging around. What the? Aiya, i know one who said that was Miss Cow. Luckily for her,if she haven said that she got a Xmas present for me,i would have slaughter her and make beef burger for everyone. Bwahahahahha!!!!!!!

What can i say,it's partially my fault too for not saying anything. But still i'm being entertain in one way or another by the internet. I almost die when the comp broke down for 2 whole days. I start to play one of those fantasy war games. You know,just words and numbers and you train troops and attack ppl. But one isn't enough, i had to register 7 different websites to make myself busy. Seven kingdoms to take care of everyday. Haiz,busy,busy,busy.

Anyway,i'll be going for CNY next year for a month. About 8 of Feb to March if i'm not mistaken. And this is a confirmed news. Still staying at home isn't so bad, i'm really saving up a lot of money. Have i ever mention that i'm poor? Ah well, be going to watch movie tomolo......

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Cheh, i know that i'm the element of air for a long,long time already. It's all soooooooooo true. Except for the last part people love that meh? I thought they love the opposite one?

SS Phoenix @ 3:07 PM

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Enriching really

Ah~~~~i've been complaining about my holiday life being boring but there's a few good parts really. First i can sleep late and now that mom's went for vacation, no one'll mind even if i don't sleep. Secondly,i hide at home to avoid seeing ppl so that they can't see my fat and pimple-ful face.

I think i've improve in some things too. Like i had practice some drawing and improved. Yes, i'm not the only one who said that,you know.Actually,it's more of imitating the expression from the comic i've mentioned. Now,my character's eyes are more beautiful than i've ever drawn. Now all i have to practice are the ears,facial shape,nose,mouth.......blah,blah,blah.
........Ok fine, i've only improve the eyes and the eyebrows so what! Ceh~~~~~~

Anyway,caught up with the naruto episode and is surprise that it's all still fillers! Damn~~~~ losing my interest liao. Heard that the fillers will end in Feb NEXT YEAR!!! Walau.... still have like at least 10 more episode of fillers~~~~~kek. I wonder if i'll start to watch others anime on youtube.....

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Ah yes! A psychic! I predict that i'll........ummm....become rich and famous?

SS Phoenix @ 12:37 AM

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Discrimination on women? Nope~~~~

Women and girls are half of the human race and guys' the other. Together, this two different beings will continue as a whole to flourish the human race. I'm one that really supports that women should be given equal rights and power as men. Women are as intelligent, able and as great as men. But do the women really have to abuse the rights and power given to them?

Look at the animal kingdom for a change, it's ruled by almost all the female counterparts. Almost. But, when we give the same rights and 'power' to our female counterparts (especially modern ones), they would just crave for more power and thinks that they are more superior than the men and try to replace it. Ever heard of 'Drink water, Be grateful for the source'? After i seen so many women who abuses the rights, i guess not all the women should be given equal rights,huh?

As far as i'm concerned, there are just maybe a few black sheep among all the wonderful and great women. It's just those bitches and sluts that spoiled and degrade the image of the women.
So i wonder, is this why women nowadays are not getting the full rights that they deserve? Or should we be blaming us men, for being such a loser for being afraid that one day the women will be more superior than the women?

I don't know the real answer to that, but the most reasonable answer i can think of is that, both the sexes are wrong in their doing. First , because some women are getting to be bitches that have big ego when they get 'power', thet'll act totally unreasonable and for one, could even lead to ours extinction. Secondly, because men does not give the rights to women in the first place, it prompts the women to become rebellious. But.... because some women are given rights and become unreasonable and abuse their rights, i guess giving power to them isn't really good too, isn't it?

So, who's wrong? Of course there're would be some debate over this matter though. But some women becomes very unreasonable and must win no matter what. Pride or Justice? Heck, blame it on the MC or blame it on men. But is MC really the causes for them(the women) to be not able to accomplished certain things. Certainly not! I have some good girl's friends who's really fun even if their MC arrive. It's just the attitude and EQ of one's way to cope with stress. See, when men are in stress, they also have mood swings just like the women. So, what's it all about? A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E!!!!

Eat more chocolate for heaven's sake then.Of course, some girls around me are also so unreasonable blaming men and MCs. But, i think that that is just cases of anorexia, an illness caused by eating disorder. Two of the symptoms for that are huge mood swings and low blood pressure. So, i pity women who have this kind of illness,is it the MCs and men fault that they got this illness? Ya,right, blame the men for loving slim women. But if all the women are fat, then do the men really have any choice?

Haiz, not one being is perfect i guess. And girls,do not blame the men for being so unsensitive and guys, the rule 'ladies' first' is a way to show our respect to the women. But girls, a word of thanks and a smile of gratefulness is always gonna tell us men to respect you again cause if i respect you, shouldn't you be respecting me back? Anyway, it'not that men are dumb when dealing with women. It's just that male teenagers are more stupier and immature, that's all. So, just you wait, when we all grow up, girls(then women) will find men attractive and much more sensitive than you think.

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Hmmmm, this is yet another test which shows why am i more popular with girls than guys eh.....

SS Phoenix @ 1:20 PM

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Thursday, December 07, 2006

Life ain't so bad, if you're me that is.

What can i say,i'm often right about things. See, i've predicted that my parents will give up and well, they did. I'm so right about ppl, not to be vain or anything but i guess ppl are predictable to me(except weird ppl that is) especially adults. I guess i'm psychic,buahahaha! Nah, seriously, i guess i just know how the world works,that's all.

My aunt which left a few days ago told me things about energy within the body. Some energy that can only be found in some ppl though. One of those energy that give ppl 'power' to do things. Not the kind of power where fireballs shoots out from your palm. Just energy that enable one to,let's say see things clearly or predict things. It's something that's born within. Of course i don't understand about it all though. Just a few things that i heard from my aunt.

She asked if i know about energy in our body or not. I said i think that it's some energy that were created by salts or sodium,or something(Dunno where i heard it from though).She said that that's the truth. Created using the sodium we consumed. Oic......she said she can feel those energy and of course, i let her test on me. Hmmm, my results was i have great energy. She advised me to use that energy wisely.

Erm, actually there's another explaination for my results though. I might have eaten too many salt and i don't exercise, so i don't think the salts can really flow out of my body easily. But still, when we put our palm together(my aunt and i), i really could feel one of those shocks, the shocks that will really hurt when we play in an air conditioned room. Walau, shock went into my joints between the legs and the thigh. Hmmm,i guess it's true then.

Haiz, what can i say, i guess not everyone is lucky. Wahahaha! Well, nowadays,i would just sit in front of the computer and see animes on youtube. Right now, i'm doing some serious catch-up on naruto which i've not seen since a few months then. Borrowed a few comics that is really funny from comic house entitled Freeman. A story about a band called Bremen,how they are formed.....etc. It's really funny! And all the band members have animal personality which sometimes their faces will turn into. A cat,dog,chicken and a horse, which all depends on their special features. Not finished yet but will soon. Only nine episodes in the whole sets only and had finished five.

Seriously,i think this post is really confusing.Haiz.....

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Quite accurate la, except natural born leader???!!!Dunno about that though~~~~
And what? i teach ppl how to get into conflict ah?

SS Phoenix @ 3:30 PM

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Monday, December 04, 2006

Of parents and children

Haiz.....there is a slight delay on my plans for the holiday.The reason: My parents thinks that i can't handle things for myself. What!!!! That's not true,i protest!!! So, they'll try to find something for me to do in Brunei first. Haiz.....then i bid them good luck,it's gonna be so hard,that i know they will eventually give up.

I am always 70% right about things if not 80. wahahaha.......i doomed. -_-"
But i think there is something i am almost 100% positive about, most parents and i mean most don't really understand their child at all. It's what's causing the problems between parents and kids today. Lack of communications. I mean parents can't just take the teachings in their era and just pound it into their child just like that. Time is different now. Things has to change to change for the better. Most parents always tell us that we must be good,honest or whatever but doesn't it really help us in a world harsh and 'unreal'?

The answer? I don't know,really. But one thing is for certain, if you only have good and honesty, it will always be taken advantage of. But is it really a bad thing? Nope,it wouldn't be if you're lucky. But can luck always protect you from harm's way. Hard to say, it may or may not. While parents work hard to raise us,giving us unconditional love....they always left out one thing. They think things kids thinks are often immature and incorrect. More over, they think that they are the ones who always see it clearly and is always right,without a second thought.

Is it stuborness? No, parents aren't really so bad. They're just trying to protect us and want the best for us or them. But the best they figured for us doesn't seem to be the best for us. Sometimes i guess selfishness just took over them. Our feelings are sometimes neglected.

Take my mother for example. She still thinks that i'm that cowardly kid who cry for everything. Ummm, duh,i'm able myself now and I seriously have not cried for the last 2 years. It's not that i'm not feeling anything or really all that brave. I'm still afraid of some creature,you know.But is that cowardice? Check the dictionary please. Ceh, i am more courageous than i look. My look of being a sloth and doesn't seem to want to try anything. But doesn't it really seem that way? Just by the look of it? It's really shallow of parent to just look. Why not stop and feel? That would be more appropiate,don't you think?

So, i don't think anyone should be blame for this matter.Or if someone should take the blame,it would be both the kids and the parents(another way of saying no one should be blame). Just being frustrated over here,no biggy.

Currently finished the anime,The Law of Ueki,which i think is one of the best anime i've seen(not that i've seen many anime though)
Current addicted song: No Regret by Koda Kumi(Second opening theme of the Law of Ueki)

You Belong in Summer

Energetic, creative, and very curious about the world...
You're not going to let anything hold you back, especially a cold day.
Whether you're chilling out at the beach or partying all night, you live for the warm weather.

What Season Are You?

SS Phoenix @ 5:12 PM

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

Unconfirm plans

Finally work out some html codes :)
Well,i was discussing about things like having braces with my mom and a favourited visiting aunt when my naive mom suddenly realize that i wouldn't start school after March next year. Duh, told her that before and i said that i would like to go Malaysia~~~~(haiz,she thought i was still in CHMS......)

Anyway,my 2nd aunt is having a course here right now,so she'll be leaving Brunei on Monday or Tuesday. Ok, here it comes: I might follow her to Miri and find some part time jobs to do there or i could follow her back to Kuching and stay with my dear old grandparents who i think is the best grandparents in the whole wide world. I'm sure my company with my grandparents will brighten their day up.They're almost alone together all the time. T_T

Of course,all of these are still under negotiation but it has a more than 80% of success,yeah me! I love to experience things i never experienced before except drugs,that is.(i smoked one cigarette before......oooo,bad memory....) Hey, you can't blame a guy whose never work before you know. I'm really anticipating this event. But don't worry,i'll be back after chinese new year ,a few weeks before chinese new year ;)

Yes! A test to see if i can survive living independently. But actually,i might be living with my fave youngest aunt in Miri,but i'll likely be working for just two months before returning to Kuching with my family to celebrate chinese new year. At least my life wouldn't be too boring and unproductive thoughout the long,long holidays. I'll tell how the negotiation goes on when i get the results.

Oh yeah, i decided that i wouldn't be afraid to go SOAS anymore, now that i think of it,why would i want to follow my sister's footstep? But still,i wouldn't be able to meet all my old friends who would be going to there~~~~haiz~~~~

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Based on this test,i'm convinced that i have high EQ which i always know i have. yeah me! *clap,clap,clap*

SS Phoenix @ 1:27 AM

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